I struggle with not being able to control the uncontrollable… and by struggle I mean that my heart starts racing, tears swell up, and I get the urge to punch things or just JUMP…
This usually happens when my routine is in the hands of someone else - someone that I have to depend on, especially on being on time in order for the rest to fall into place.
I have ALWAYS been like this, since I can remember.
I am the definition of a “type A personality”:
tend to multitask
be competitive
have a lot of ambition
be very organized
dislike wasting time
feel impatient or irritated when delayed
spend much of your time focused on work
be highly focused on your goals
be more likely to experience stress when faced with delays or other challenges that affect success
I am wired this way & I accept who I am, because I am proud of myself... honestly, sometimes I do let the tears loose.. I cry & I go punch my punching bag, I let it happen & get it over with BUT during the other times I work on my anxiety bursts that come from the uncontrollable.
I try to practice what I preach with my daughters: to just BREATHE… take a few deep breaths & step back (this is honestly my go to, to clear up any fog that crowds my mind).
As I do that I work EXTRA hard to listen to the sounds around me; look for things that I can focus on; touch the nearest item to me; inhale & pinpoint the smells around me; & if I can I grab banana to munch on…
I work overtime to bring my anxiety levels down because I know I am the least productive when they are so high. Focusing on my senses and what I can do definitely helps me settle.
I like to refer often to my mom’s favorite saying or prayer: the Serenity Prayer:
God,
Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot CHANGE;
Courage to CHANGE the things I can;
And Wisdom to know the DIFFERENCE.
Anxiety is common, you are not alone.
It can be tough (for crying out loud… it is freaking tough).
Keep moving forward.
I'd appreciate if you share this & provide feedback. I’ll be back soon.
- SOWO Gonz
REMINDER:
Go prioritize yourself:
Your physical health matters.
Your mental health matters.
Your emotional health matters.
YOU MATTER.
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